human connectivity.

I've been thinking a great deal about human connections and the power of unexplored communication. For example: have you ever thought about a friend, and then they called you? Is it possible that you were able to unknowingly communicate with that friend by simply putting your thoughts out there?!?

Personally, I have a few friends where this happens - and quite often. Most commonly, my friend Christina and I will cross messages. We have semi-sporadic communication to begin with. So it's always weird when she'll text me something entirely hilarious and lame; while I will be sending her something just as childish and re re at the same time. We also find it common that we share similar mood patterns - even though we're thousands of miles apart. 


One of the crazier instances was maybe four months ago. I was standing on a street corner waiting to cross the street and go into the subway. Suddenly, I was overwhelmed with thoughts of my friend, Katie. It was like I could almost feel her near me - I don't really know how else to explain it. No joke, about thirty seconds later, she drove by on her way to work! She didn't even see me, but I must have looked like an idiot to everyone around me. My mouth literally dropped opened as I said "WHAAAAAT THE FUUUUCK?!"

A few years ago I reconnected with someone (we'll call him Mr X), after years of being lost to one another. But some months later, we found ourselves parting ways due to "irreconcilable differences". Since then, he has become someone who plagues my thoughts from time to time. Someone I worry about and care for, but who I couldn't even talk to. About a month ago, I started thinking about how he was. I finally decided to bite the bullet and send him a message. I honestly didn't think I was going to get a response because of how we left things before. To my surprise, I did get a reply. What surprised me even more was that he replied saying he was just thinking about how he was going to figure out how to contact me. The added twist is he just told me how he has been feeling really weighed down about the way things ended previously and how he has been wanting to apologize. In turn, for the last several nights I have been having incessant dreams about him apologizing to me. The dreams are always in different settings but are almost identical in terms of the apology - which I just received. Coincidence? Crazy? Creepy? 

This is why I question the power of human connectivity. Is there something that scientists are yet to discover about the importance of chemistry? I wonder if when the pheromone exchange happens, that something in turn happens inside of the people involved. Is it possible that when we share such intense chemistry - and connect on a deeper level - that we actually change and somehow mold to the ones we connect to? I wish I could explain why I have this gravitational pull to Christina, Kate and Mr. X? I guess I may never know or be able to explain these "moments". Honestly though, I'd rather have them and be like WTF - then not have them at all. 


food for thought...